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    My friend Gene is in the same Bible Study group. Gene is always there whenever someone needs help. His wife is my wife’s good friend. 

     

    But somehow meeting Gene is starting to make me miserable. Every time, Gene would ask about my stroke. As the conversation goes deeper, I would share my challenges such as fatigue, brain fog, muscle spasm and mobility issues. I would express my wish that one day I could magically walk like everyone else again.

     

    Before I could finish, Gene would always rush to comment: But you look great! Without you telling me these, I could not see you having so many problems at all.

     

    I know Gene means well, and I should not blame him for not knowing how painful hidden disabilities can be.

     

    But my friend, do you really care what I have to say? 

     

    As survivors, we run into such subtle misunderstandings all the time. They wear us out.

     

    Am I too sensitive? What is your experience? What can be done?

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    • Faeezah Storer
      Participant

      Thank you.

    • Faeezah Storer
      Participant

      Hi there,

      I saw a person on the feed, asking about medication 1 800 mg epilim or,
      epizartan or something he or she is taking. 1 800 mg a day I assume.
      Initially, my dosage was a lot lower. I asked how I could reduce the
      medication? The doctors are prescribing medication approximately 2 000 mg.
      I was shocked. You should get a second opinion from a neurologist.

      I use alternative therapy with conventional medicine. I use acupuncture to
      heal the nerve pain, massages, and tibb medication. I massage my legs in a
      bath tub or I walk. Swimming I am told, is very good.

      Warm regards,
      Faeezah

    • Faeezah Storer
      Participant

      Daniel, what is your biggest challenge to date and how are you overcoming
      it?

      Warm regards,
      Faeezah.

    • Faeezah Storer
      Participant

      Hi Daniel,

      The biggest challenge I’d say the physical, spiritual and emotional
      challenges. I had help from my partner who is loving and unselfish person I
      have ever known. God bless him. I had to learn from scratch who was in
      charge. God. I was eager to learn. In my mind, I was a child. As an adult,
      I’d see an incapacitated big body. I could not correlate the two. I think
      mind over matter wins in the end for me. I navigated by watching cartoons,
      or programmes what is pleasing to me for example, Disney classics or a love
      story. Then, I went on to watch crime thrillers and mystery movies. It gave
      me a sense of what am I dealing with. The reality of the world and the
      people in it. I discovered that the good and the bad, and everything in
      between.

      Warm regards,
      Faeezah.

    • Strokefocus Admin
      Participant

      Faeezah, that was an incredible story. What was the biggest challenge you
      dealt with in your journey of recovery, may I ask?

    • Faeezah Storer
      Participant

      Hi Thobeka and Daniel,

      I think that different personalities, albeit about their being quiet about
      their pain or they want to help or give back. I want to talk by merely
      helping people or you. That’s why I am on the discussion group. I have lots
      of pain. From beginning to end. I felt it. My limbs were numb.Emotionally I
      was deplete. I had a CVS stroke. Intellectually, I was devastated. I
      crawled to the level I am at. My faith got me through it. I still cry to
      God about what happened to me and what’s happening to me. I would like to
      hear about muscle spasms and mobility. I would love to hear what exercises
      do you do and your “stroke” diet. I’m starting to look like a little
      dumpling. Please help. Any advice would be appreciated.

      Warm regards
      Faeezah.

    • Strokefocus Admin
      Participant

      Thobeka, so nice to see you here. What are the challenges you would like to
      bring up and share with this community?

      Many times, survivors do not like to talk about their challenges. What do
      you think is causing this? What will make survivors more willing to open up?

    • Strokefocus Admin
      Participant

      Faeezah, this is very thoughtful. Tell everyone more about you. What
      brought you here?

      And some said survivors just do not want to share their thoughts. They do
      not like discussing things related to them. Do you think this is true? What
      are the topics you would like to see? Would you like to add topics that
      interest you to this forum?

    • Thobeka Marumo
      Participant

      I agree with George on this one, talking about how the statement makes you feel would maybe help Gene aware. I wouldn’t say you too sensitive, it’s just how you feel and that must be acknowledged. See how the talk goes

    • Faeezah Storer
      Participant

      Hi there,

      Thank you for alerting to many stroke survivors about your experience/s.
      Thank you to George for emailing me about this discussion.

      My contribution is about, “are we too sensitive…”. I am very very
      sensitive. I’d say yes, in your situation. Perhaps, you could approach it
      from a different perspective. Say, I’d change the camera lens. For you, I
      see it through your eyes. I came out of the stroke as a tender 5 year old,
      due to the consequences. I was realistically in my 40’s. I withdrew from
      people. From all my friends and my family. I wasn’t yet ready to see them.
      Perhaps they were laughing at me, some prayed for me. You may never know.
      Some admire me from afar. I do not know what they are thinking. I let only
      people who I am comfortable with.

      Maybe, your friend who comes to see how you are doing and goes away, pray
      for you and cries behind your back. Cries to God, “Please restore him and
      heal him.” You should your frustrations with your partner, your priest or
      with a therapy group. I am very shy. The therapy group I could not handle
      it at first. Now I can speak about it.

      Do it for yourself, every available opportunity to heal. There are some
      days that don’t want to get up. Others, I am positive. Never, ever, stop
      giving up on you or yourself.

      Kind regards,
      Faeezah (stroke survivor).

      • Strokefocus Admin
        Participant

        Faeezah,

         

        It is very interesting to know you also used acupuncture to help with your recovery.

         

        The trickiest part of acupuncture is it is very hard to find a real good one who truly knows how to treat survivors. I found one in Los Angeles thanks to the help of Chinese American community. There are more than 8000 acupuncturists in Los Angeles and no more than 5 know how to handle stroke. (Do not trust what acupuncturists say in the ads)

         

        Here is a video interview we made for this acupuncturist. Neil Yu is the one who introduced me to this acupuncturist:

    • George Scola
      Participant

      I think as survivors we can sometimes take things personally. Have you ever tried to have a conversation about how your friend’s statement or questions make you feel, because they are actually attempting to show empathy. We cannot expect non-survivors to fully understand the difficulties we experience and the level of pain and suffering, both physical and emotional, we have had to endure and overcome. If they continue to ignore how it makes you feel, then how you respond is entirely up to you, because you have given them the opportunity to try understand your side of the story and how their statements attempting to show support and care, actually become counter productive with your recovery.

    • Joyce Hoffman
      Moderator

      Change the subject to what YOU want to talk about! I always do that! Do it
      awkwardly, right after he makes some statement, and maybe he’ll get the
      hint after awhile. Answering someone who hasn’t had a stroke is brutal
      repeatedly and Gene might learn a lesson.

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